Ordinary Awakening

This book has no answers or Ordinary Awakening.

Written at SFO Airport, July 2025.

There is this thing that occurs in humans, a misalignment in identifying the self and the apparent other* as a human and not as we are, the light of awareness, the light of consciousness, the light of existence.

In the play of human existence on Earth in a body/avatar/form we interact with each other and our self in that play by doing all the things humans do, we eat together, sleep together, meet friends, swim together, get drunk together, laugh together, sit in nature, walk in nature alone, shit alone, travel together, teach, birth, wash dishes, cook, clean, garden, every single thing that we do in form as an experience in a body.

We do these things in the play of life because the body is our vehicle for expression, the avatar that fills its day with activities. Therefore, we respect and care for the body vehicle and mind as precious tools that allow us to function in the world.

But is that all that is?

The misalignment that humans make, is that the human believes that the body and mind is the be all and end all. The experience of form to the unconscious human is everything, full stop.

Yet, once a being* is aware of self as awareness, not identifying as a body, and is conscious in presence, that play of form discussed earlier is seen as a veil, an illusion. Just as form appears to be solid, it is in essence vibrating light, yes, a vibration which combined with the energy and potency of love can transmute and alchemise the genetic expression* of a being.

The vibration can be at a low and dense frequency where fear and doubt have ascendency which is then reflected in the life of that being. Because as beings we create our experience from within then we literally experience fear and doubt through those specific feelings or beliefs that we promulgate. We become a self-fulfilling prophet of our experience. The being with a low frequency that looks outside of itself for someone or something to blame, blames the outside world for all its problems and issues, feels like a victim, wants to control and sees life as a competition, same shit different day. The world and therefore its inhabitants appear to be out to make life difficult!

Alternatively, with conscious awareness, claiming self as the “I AM” * the frequency chosen can be deeper and a lighter vibration, in this instance the being claims and sees self as a blessing, practices gratitude and feels grateful for self, is compassionate of self, loves self, sees self as the light of awareness, the light of consciousness, a seer, the source, lives in presence, sees the apparent other as themselves i.e. love, the one consciousness. Life is an inside job and is then reflected in the flow of life. There is a choice when there is awareness of thoughts, emotions and memories, in observing the observer, witnessing the witnesser.

With consciousness we can ask “What is the frequency I choose?”

In other words, with awareness choice is an option, without awareness there is literally no choice.

So, the pointing is to the feeling of love of self, unconditionally, beyond form, to claim self as the light of awareness that we all are beyond form. Unifying the mind with the heart and feeling into the Heart chakra. * Focusing on the Heart chakra and slowing the breath, observing the thoughts, emotions and memories as they arise with awareness and allowing the thoughts, emotions and memories to drift by without any attachment, just like observing a cloud drift by, so simple. During the day when one attaches to thoughts, emotions and memories we stay stuck in the frequency of solidity and density of form and stagnate.

This bit is important.

In the heart space, the Heart chakra, by trusting your intuition and by integrating the feeling of self love and breathing in those deep vibrational feelings of gratitude, appreciation, compassion, abundance for the self first and the apparent other which is you, the world as you know it transforms because there is an alchemy and embodiment of love in a being, in you.

It is also important to understand that this space of self love is paradoxically, an impersonal or neutral space, this does not mean that emotions or feelings of density like sadness, loss, anger or frustration, do not arise, they do, yet these emotions and others do not linger. With awareness and consciousness, they are fleeting because the focus is on coming back to breath and the intuitive feeling of love of self in the heart. Where the feeling of love is embodied, love embraces the density of the lower vibrations and a transmutation takes place.

Personal boundaries are naturally maintained and co-dependency is not an issue because the focus is on self love not a personal story. Yes, we all have personal stories, yet, because there is one consciousness,and we are all that, our stories are one story. The details of the story can be deemed to be somewhat irrelevant.

This does not mean that there is no experience of a story, we incarnate into a body for an experience which begins with human conditioning as density, we are given a name, an identity, a set of rules and cultural boundaries. We forget who we are in the human story until an awareness is seeded as we realise that something is observing thought. Thoughts do not observe thoughts. What is this thing that observes thoughts, it is awareness, God/Goddess, it is the light of consciousness which you are now. So, in claiming your awareness the seed sprouts as awakening. And therefore, the human story becomes a lucid dream, because we are not the story, we are consciousness, the essence that is observing and witnessing.

A deepening of self as awareness, the light of awareness, occurs through a persistent and consistent daily meditation practice. It is a discipline to commit to a daily practice, to sit in stillness, slowing the breath, bowing the mind in unity to and with an open heart. To feel, feel and feel love, gratitude, grace, worthiness, compassion, prosperity, presence, joy, peace, radiance, light and space in our hearts for self. At birth we chose a name, we learnt through repetition to answer to that name, we identified as that character and its unique traits.

As Krishnamurti said, “the moment a child learns the name of a bird, they may stop truly seeing the bird, instead experiencing it through the concept of its name.”

In a meditation practice, we can look into a mirror each day with open eyes and confirm and claim self as love, claiming that love and embodying it in every cell of our bodies. The seeker is looking and searching on a path for something which is already lying latent within, until the seed sprouts into awakening.

Meditation is a form of stillness with many faces, what is it that you are drawn to that allows stillness to penetrate your being? There are no rules to suggest that meditation is to be practised in a lotus position in the darkness!

A meditation practice could be dance. Or walking in a forest?  Singing?

Play, or yoga, tai chi or Qigong or throwing a Nerf vortex aero howler? Meditation is what you intuitively feel is what is best for you to attain stillness and feeling the vibration of love in the open heart.

In acknowledging oneself as the God/Goddess, the light of awareness, throughout the day, we can be open to the potential to transmute to a loving, vibrating energy. A vibrating energy of love, a conduit for the light of existence.

It is simply a matter of having the courage to trust and feel that in our self.

Imagine the shift which can take place in the collective unconscious through claiming yourself as the highest frequency in presence NOW, yes through your example as a way shower for the apparent other.

Creation is done, it is finished. We are simply opening up our hearts to create the grid, to resonate with the frequency that allows love to bathe in each and every cell of our body, we can be literally like an antenna receiving the gift of love, selflessly.

Does my appearance of my world change?

Yes, because of the inner integration and embodiment of compassion and love, like water caressing a rock in a stream as it soothes a rocks jaggered edges, the appearance softens when unconditional love is alive in the heart.

The rock does not judge the water, as it appears to evolve into another form.

The rock simply is and there appears to be an unfolding, this is nature in its natural state.

In claiming the stillness, the love of self with an open heart we are fulfilling the purpose of existence, to promulgate conscious love.

Are there challenges?

Yes, as consciousness we live in a world of form and contrast via our body vehicle…. rejoice in the gift that challenges evaporate in the face of love.

Challenges appear so that the love you are dissolves the density.

Is this heaven?

No, it is San Francisco

Notes and terminology:

Apparent other – refers to the people that appear in the dream and appear separate from the self. There are no people, only vibrating light, we have been conditioned since birth to identify ourselves and others by our name, by our career, by our wealth or poverty.

The apparent other is the light of consciousness, the one consciousness and deserves our love and respect as we love and respect the self.

Being – is that invisible vibrating packet of energy, the vibrating light of consciousness appearing to be within a human form but is formless and multidimensional.

Heart Chakra - The Heart Chakra, when open, activated and balanced allows us to invite love, empathy, compassion and positivity into our lives. It represents unconditional love, compassion and joy.

Genetic Expression – Is the process by which the information encoded in a gene is turned into a function. 

I AM – The eternal God incarnate.